Have you ever had one of those days when you would just like to crawl back in bed and start the day over??? Today was it for me and I'm sure a few others would say the same thing at my place of work. It has been very very intense, tense and to make my point, extremely intense at work lately. I will spare you the details, but it started way back in July when we had our State Inspections only to be followed with the Federal Inspectors right on their heels. Then we had a new corporation take over with all of their consultants to introduce new policies, forms, and more forms, protocols and procedures, who have been in the building for the last month. Kinda like to many cooks in the kitchen, with each one giving us different recipes to follow.
I generally have a very calm, unruffled, accepting friendly nature, but there was a time in my life that this was not so, before I became a Christian I had a very bad temper and what I referred to as a black mood. Now, since the Lord has changed my heart my temper rarely rises to the surface and black moods are gone...but lately I know I have not made my heavenly Father very happy. I have lost my temper, my patience, and in general my mood is not calm accepting or friendly, and I might add quite ruffled!!1
Even some of my co-worker have said. "my I have never seen that side of you before" I have not been setting very good examples for sure!!!
"But there is forgiveness with thee, that thou mayest be feared" Psalm 130:4
Oh, yes thank you Lord!!!
There have even been tears shed by just about everyone at work, including me. Because of the situation we have found ourselves in, the unpleasant nature called the flesh that everyone has within, has risen to the surface to show its ugly head in the form of curt words, grumbling under our breath and total chaos in transacting to our new paper work. I know in my heart we will get through this and one day look back on it as just another trial that we needed to overcome.
But in the mean time I need to apologize to any one I have been harsh with or spoke out of anger or frustration. I pray that my Father will once again give me the sweet spirit that I seem to have temporarily lost and am feeling convicted of. I want to point people in the direction of our Lord and not away from Him. I will not do this if my attitude or actions show anything other than love.
Psalm 40:3 "And he hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in Jehovah"
I am ever so thankful for my heavenly Father who convicts my heart and keeps me on the path that leads only to Him.
I have tomorrow off and I think the Lord knew I needed that as well. Come Friday I will take on the armour and the challenge to be obedient to my savior.